Vicious Circle


Right now my life and the progression of it seems like it is stalled…its like this horrific vicious circle that I can’t get out of.

I can’t get a boyfriend, why?
Because I am fat and have loose skin whereas, why?
Because I lost a bunch of weight, but still don’t look like what I look like, why?
Because I can’t get a guy to go out with me or sleep with me more than once (and/or get a boyfriend), why?
… and so on and so on …

First let me remind you that I don’t subscribe to the whole “you can’t get someone to like you if you don’t like yourself first,” and I’ve detailed my thoughts on that here (so don’t even try to use that excuse).

Well I am breaking the circle. I am doing something about feeling better about myself, and how I look. That is why I am moving out of my apartment onto the streets of San Francisco in order to save up money for my surgery to get rid of the excess skin, fat and glands which are preventing me from looking like a normal citizen of the gay 20-something culture in San Francisco.

Do you agree? I doubt it, but look at it from my perspective. My 20’s are more going than coming these days. I’ve NEVER had a boyfriend, relationship with a guy, or so much as TWO dates with a guy who I liked or liked me. These are ALL things that every single person my age who I hang around with in SF have accomplished.

I see a fixable solution to my circle, and I am taking it. I am doing what needs to be done in order to accomplish my goals the fastest way I know. I’ve now had a few friends suggest that I sell my body for money in order to reach my goals faster. I don’t think they understand….I HATE MY BODY! My BODY has gotten me no where in terms of guys wanting to be with me after they see me nekkid once. Why on earth would someone pay to be with me, when I can’t even get someone to be with me more than once on my own?

Anyway, this is my decision. I am sticking to it for as long as I can. It is going to be a rough road ahead, but I look forward to looking back in a few months from now and realizing that the journey, no matter how rough, difficult, and unconventional it may be, will be worth it.

Nick Tuck Article

The other day I was contacted by Donna Sue Talarico about my weight loss story and specifically the steps I am taking to get the surgery I need after such dramatic weight loss. The article which she wrote featured a good few paragraphs about my story and what is in store. Here is an exceprt of my portion, but check out the entire article here.

Nick Starr, 28, of San Francisco, weighed more than 250 pounds last year. Through diet and exercise, he shed more than 100 pounds, but he’s left with sagging skin and desperately wants plastic surgery to fix it. Always overweight, he’d wanted plastic surgery as long as he could remember but originally thought liposuction was the answer.

“I realized a tummy tuck was the better procedure for me now, since I have excess skin and fat which won’t go away, no matter how much I’ve worked out in the past year,” he said, adding that his consulting surgeon also suggested love-handle lipo and a breast reduction.

Starr admitted he’s never been good at managing money, so he’s taking an extreme measure to raise $8,000 for his abdominoplasty: becoming homeless.

“I had to change something. I was homeless, living in my car once before,” he explained, adding that now he doesn’t have wheels. “I figure I can do it without the car with a few months while I save up money for the tuck.”

Starr dubbed his journey Nick/Tuck and is chronicling his progress and accepting donations on his blog at

Like so many others, Starr feels plastic surgery is the solution to finally being happy inside out. Yaremchuk believes strongly that plastic surgery can be life-changing by improving appearance and boosting self-esteem, but he cautions patients that it’s not always the answer to “solve all life’s problems.”


Nick Tuck

At my highest weight I was at 250lbs, and last year decided to do what needed to be done to drop the weight. I am now down around 145-150, thus resulting in over 100lbs of weight loss and I’ve kept it off for over a year now. (Here’s how)

The result of growing up in size “hefty” and being overweight my entire life has left me with certain problem areas which won’t go away even with as much diet and exercise as I’ve been doing since deciding to lose weight. I’ve had personal trainers and my stomach, chest, and flanks just don’t seem to go down to a level where I would feel comfortable taking my shirt off in public, let alone in private.

I’ve decided to take some extreme measures in order to save up the money as quickly as possible, but living on the street is not a fun experience. The total cost of the Abdominoplasty alone is $8,000, but the surgeon recommended a $4,500 Gynecomastia, and $3,700 liposuction on my flanks, for a discounted total of $15,200. I’ve got thousands of friends on FacebookTwitter, the blog here, may other social networks, and most importantly in real life. If you can offer any sort of assistance in my quest to become the best me I can, it is appreciated. A place to crash, a recommendation to a surgeon, a discount, a part time job, or even a simple donation it would be appreciated.

Should I buy this shirt?
My problem areas (Flabby stomach & Gynecomastia)

Feel free to email me or leave a comment, question, concern, etc. I appreciate any / all feedback and can’t say thank you enough for supporting me throughout all these years.

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